When I read your post it was like looking into a mirror. Even though I did not have all these wonderful musical experiences as you had, I stayed busy working full time and playing piano whenever I could. After retirement did the nursing and retirement home circuit with my wife of 60 years of marriage on vocals and a Yamaha arranger keyboard. Had a lot of satisfying gigs and was paid for having fun. Now at 82 I too sit down at the keyboard and it does not give me any satisfaction anymore. It has been said that music will lengthen your life. May be I should give it a rest for a while and come back to the keyboard and explore all the wonderful things it can do, but never did have the time or the desire. May be reading the manual will get me motivated to find out what more my arranger keyboard can do.I just don't want to give up music. It is good for the soul!