Gary, I'm sad to read it; wish you to have some improvement the soonest possible; you are a strong man, but strong people have bigger fights. I see the seriousness of the situation, but sometimes things seem hopeless, yet there are good moments to come regardless. I know you are not a religious person, I'm not much of it either, but I believe that life is a tricky thing, it runs fast; but if such a mystery as life on earth exists, I believe there are other funny thing exist as well, and this is more of a first lesson, and you did very well;

I think existence of music proves that people are more than just atoms and molecules, if music exists, I bet a lot of other things exist which we are still unaware of in this life, but will somehow learn later.