People will try to apply themselves in areas where they have not been given a gift. Many constantly try to be who they are not; that’s the equivalent of never being happy. Find your true gifts – keep changing and searching until you become excited. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU – you just are doing what the world wants. Same with the money thing.
You were created special with great talents but you have been looking in the wrong place and your brain is telling you it wants out.
People who have lost their mate through sickness are told to change everything. Read a different newspaper – get up at a different time – become different in your habits.
I do not remember you speaking about a woman in your life. Hmmmmm!
I wonder why.
IMHO, John C.