This new reality is quite a challenge. What a peaceful time we just had recently. I’m thinking about finding some job in delivery – just want to ride my car and deliver some things; it should provide me with some pocket money and keep me sane. Staying at home reading news is probably going to be much more harmful that the virus itself.
But as I had an ambition to become a composer or a songwriter, I guess, facing these challenges should be some source of emotions to me, which will transform into music later.
As we can judge now, the virus is not really that harmful; only numbers without the context can be frightening; but these anticipations, problems with the economy, they produce a lot of stress.
I guess, a lot of political stuff, which seemed to be so important before, now really looks as empty as it really is.
And, maybe, this is the lesson to be learnt. People saw other people as source of their problems and unhappiness; now we have an enemy which is not like people at all. Scientists of all countries unite and work hard, doctors work hard; and governments are now really need to show themselves as good managers.
In the same time, while we share one common threat right now, or an idea of it, a lot of personal stuff is going on with everyone, and objectively speaking, that stuff can be more important. For example, I often see a man not far from my house, who looks like a good man, he walks together with his daughter, who obviously has some serious disorder. I see how he’s tired of it and still committed to it (no signs of a mother); till recently his daughter was walking by herself, but last time I saw her in a wheelchair. So I probably should feel ashamed if I feel that the risk of getting some flu makes me very special. Life sometimes seems wonderful, sometimes it doesn’t seem fair. Sometimes it looks like people build a great society, sometimes it looks like one just wants to enslave another.
But what inspires me is how each one has his purpose. In some way I believe, that when a person doesn’t have this feeling of a purpose, that’s when he becomes a negative version of a human being. I know a doctor, a woman and my former neighbor, she’s been a doctor for all her long life and as she said, she had always known what she was supposed to be.
I’m also inspired by how beautiful this world is. It makes you believe that any sorts of evil is some sort of abnormality.
Well, probably I’m trying to distract myself with these reflections. While doing that, I concluded, that too much work/effort/obsession eventually turns into making stupid mistakes and bad decisions.
I’m grateful for the opportunity to communicate with you all; after all, everything in life would be meaningless if it can’t be shared with other people.