Hey, man, everyone needs to find that balance between creating the music (or art, or writing...whatever) that gives them a sense of accomplishment and having fun. A degree of focus and dedication is necessary, and, from what I see, you have plenty of that.
You also have a great sense of humor. We live in an increasingly lightweight society,
where fewer people take a stand. they simply don't take the time to articulate their beliefs and state them...thus the lack of response.
Believe in yourself...keep the focus on creativity, and HAVE FUN!
There are people here who really look forward to what you have to say.
thanks for being here,
russ