...Sounds to me at least, like you've got a lot more issues wearing ya down my friend.
Lighten up on yourself, and try to find whatever it is that will put a positive spin on your day to day.
Hell..I'll be the first to admit that I'm very self conscious when it comes to my playing.
I'd love to be able to pound the keys like Jimmy Smith, or Keith Emerson, but I know it ain't gonna happen, so why sweat the small stuff.
Take care freak, and keep doing what your doing, as long as life will let ya!
Have a look around...
...ya got friends here.
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...shboom[This message has been edited by shboom (edited 09-28-2005).]