Ekurburski, your answer is in your post. You wrote; Problem, it is a job to do. Right now, it is the only to do.” Ekurburski, you are about as normal as everyone else here. If all I had to do (Job) was my keyboard, I’d go nuts! If I stay with my wife, which I love, all day, I would go nuts. If I watch TV too long, I go nuts.
There are times when I get an idea and I can’t waist until I get to the keyboard. And I never, ever call that a job. I never practice, I play. You have made what you are doing a job. Tonight, I sat with a tune for two hours, I got nothing accomplished, but I enjoyed every minute of it.
Words like these can take the joy out of anything.
“I need to find”
“I need to work on”
“Arranger keyboards are not easy play unless you want to accept mediocre results”
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I think this was said on another post:
Take one song, and when you feel it sounds good, do another song. No pressure – no list to do, -- no playing if you find you are losing interest – no demands on you.
If I am missing the mark –or have not understood, I apologize. It’s just that I read frustration in your post.
John C.